Nikki McClure

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Before I became a mother I was relatively certain I had done most of my personal growth work.


I mean, ok…. I knew we are never really done with our inner work, and I was quite familiar with the theory that our own children bump up against our “stuff”…but some part of me felt ever so sure that those would be like little speed-bumps on what felt like a pretty smooth road of serenity that I had been tending to for some time.

Right? Because, I had participated so fully in all those wonderful and inspiring workshops, done a lot of therapy (as a client), and had been practicing therapy (as the therapist) for a good number of years.

Plus, I was a long-time meditator. The ground had been laid…



You know where I’m going here, I’m sure.

Oh, and of course I was “prepared” to some degree for the sleep deprivation. Soon-to-be moms are warned over and over: “Catch up on your sleep now, because you won’t get it later!”

What I wasn’t prepared for though, was the amount of doubt I would have inside me. The insecurity I would feel about how I was doing as a mom. And, despite historically having a pretty solid handle on how to navigate through the territory of anxiety, I was really not prepared for the levels of anxiety that on some days felt like it enveloped my body from head to toe.

My perfectionist demons reared their heads, as did a fear that I was going to screw up this brand new, innocent little being.



After the intensity of the first year, in the midst of some grounding moments, I was able to frame it like this:

I was stepping into one of the biggest initiations of my life.

It took me awhile, as the shock of it thawed, to see that what I had experienced in those early months was NORMAL. Not just the exhaustion, but also the worry, the doubt, the vulnerability, and deep need for acceptance I felt day after day.

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In the midst of those early days, we mamas deserve a safe and supportive space to connect with ourselves. Connect…with each other. Connect…to our hearts. And to the hearts of other moms. In a way that is completely honouring of exactly where we are at, and completely honouring of the depth of wisdom that lives in each of us.

nourishI personally had no idea I would have that much internal doubt and tender vulnerability the early days. It was a humbling experience to recognize how much I genuinely and legitimately needed other people to encircle me with support and love, and…to believe in me.

I am so excited to be facilitating the Wise Heart Mamas program for moms of young children that addresses this very thing. We are not talking typical mommy-group here. We are talking about a whole other level of self-compassion and mindful approach with our children, our families, and…ourselves.

If you or someone you know is a mama, and is interested in learning more, please contact me here  for more info.

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13 Responses to INITIATION into MOTHERHOOD

  1. Eliane Sainte-Marie says:

    Absolutely beautiful, Sarah. Not that I would have expected anything less than from you.

    I just shared it everywhere I could.

    Have you considered offering your program online? I’d totally recommend it to my peeps!

    Lots of love to you sister. The mamas participating in your program will be some lucky mamas!

    Eliane Sainte-Marie, founder of Parenting For Wholeness

    • sarah nakatsuka says:

      So much gratitude to you my friend for all that you are and all that you do…and for supporting this deep rooted passion of mine to bring offerings to mamas in this way. I will percolate on your online idea…

  2. Jennifer Mellof says:

    Thank you Sarah, this is beautiful and I am excited for this much needed heartfelt program. I also think an online version would be an excellent idea for those outside your area or unable to attend!

  3. I’m extremely impressed with your writing skills as well as with the layout on your weblog. Is this a paid theme or did you customize it yourself? Either way keep up the nice quality writing, it’s rare to see a great blog like this one these days..

    • sarah nakatsuka says:

      Thank you for taking the time to write this feedback, much appreciated:) I paid for the creation and management of the site…and I’m not sure what WP theme it is to tell you the truth! I use a lot of my own art and photos. Have a beautiful welcoming week to 2016…

  4. Hello.This post was really motivating, particularly because I was browsing for thoughts on this subject last Friday.

    • sarah nakatsuka says:

      How cool that you came across this article while you were browsing for thoughts on this subject. So glad to hear it was motivating! Warmly, Sarah

  5. Great post. Thanks for the read.

  6. Good article, thanks.

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